Hey Gurlz...

This is dedicated to my dear beloved friends and to all the girls that are being man handled (emotionally or physically) by their boyfriends or lovers..

please girls be firm..don't be flimsy..
don't let him make your decision for you..
you have the right to speak up about your relationship with him..
guys take advantage when we don't put our guards up..
i know sometimes when we're in love we lower our guards down without even knowing or realizes it

that is why we need to make the guys know that we are who we are..
they have no rights to change you..
no rights to hurt or harm you in anyway
and if he does hurt you leave him (emotionally)
but if hurts you physically tell someone you can trust n of course leave him

i advise to all girls that don't give to much chances to these guys..
cause they will take you for granted..
they will think that if they did something wrong next time..
they can escape next time with another chance
(i've been through this so0 many times..so0 that is why i advise you not to make the same mistake that i've made..i gone through it the hard way and i don't want you to experience it to0.)

make guys understand that love and forgiveness is something that they have to earn..
so0 that they wont make the same mistake again..
so0 that they would cherish you more..
and think before they act..

but if the relationship is impossible to fixed..
then you should just leave them..
it is not worth it..
i know it is hard to leave someone that you love more than ever..
but it is for your own good..
don't be with a guy who doesn't appreciates you..
who doesn't care for you..
who doesn't love you as much as you loved him..
because the end result would be catastrophic if you don't leave him..
you will be the one that would get hurt..

leaving a guy that you love is tough..
i know..
but don't cry over it..
don't stuff your face with food or ice cream (which i usually do)
just go out..
hangout with your friends..
have a makeover (that would make him regret for ever hurting you)
have fun while you're still single..
meet someone new..that would surely help
and don't ever look back..
what is in the past..stays in the past..
don't dwell on the past..
that would just destroy you..(that i learnt from my bf)

in my own opinion love should be like a midsummer's evening..
something that is beautiful
make your feel warmth inside
it should be something that comes naturally
not forced..
and something that is so0 captivating that it literally takes your breath away

that is what i think love and being in a relationship is..
not being tortured by one another..
so0 to my besties that is having boy problems hope that this will help you..

Wreckage

Are we here to pretend
Well i don't think that i am
But you're surely are
All the times that we spent
Were just burnt into dust
Do you care?
Will you care?
Would you ever really cared?

I regret that i put
All my love into you
Thought you cared and you felt the same way
But i was fooled
BY my own blinding love

How could I've let this happened?
How could i blindly fallen in love?
How did i let you in?

All is confusing
Cause love makes us that way
Even though, it's just me who is in love
Now how does our story goes?
How would it end?
Neither you and i ever know

Strawberry Waltz

Disregard what we know

Well your voice is so slow

Will i stay 

Will i go this evening

See the light on the rail

Reflect red off the tail light

In front of us

Slowly leading

Heed my warning my darling

Don't let the twilight drown

Feel the shoreline thriving

Turn around

Turn around

Turn around

Well we pull of the road

Sinking slow, sinking slow

And the gravel recedes into dust

And the unfaithful sun

Went to burn all alone

Just to love, just for love

Just for plain simple love

Heed my warning my darling

Don't let the twilight drown 

Fell the shoreline thriving

Turn around

Turn around

Turn around

Heed my warning my darling

Please don't let the twilight drown 

Fell the shoreline thriving

Turn around

Turn around

Turn around

Meg & Dia

I'll Find Mine

Where is the laughter

I saw a picture

You looked so happy

When i saw when you with her

And i'm so glad i knew you before you met her

So i know 

How guys are before they get her

I've got it down

You've showed me again

Just so you know

Don't push me around

I know you resent that i'm alone

Pity and mercy

Do nothing for me

You know me better than anyone

Go get your girl

She's looking at you like you're crazy

We can pretend you never even knew me

It would workout 

Don't let go of that one

I'll find mine

Run into you

Every time i walk out my door

Oh, it's precious 

You've never held my hand like that before

No need to stop and wave

You stay calm and i'll be brave

Don't ever look down on me

Don't ever feel bad for me

I've got it down

You've showed me again

Just so you know

Don't push me around

I know you resent that i'm alone

Pity and mercy

Do nothing for me

You know me better than anyone

Go get your girl

She's looking at you like you're crazy

We can pretend you never even knew me

It would workout 

Don't let go of that one

I'll find mine

Oh, find mine

Find mine

Look at me, look at me

I've got time to find

Mine (4x)

I've got it down

You've showed me again

Just so you know

Don't push me around

I know you resent that i'm alone

Pity and mercy

Do nothing for me

You know me better than anyone

Go get your girl

She's looking at you like you're crazy

We can pretend you never even knew me

It would workout 

Don't let go of that one

And I'll find mine

I'll find mine

I'll find mine

Meg & Dia

Roses

Turn around there's those eyes again
Turn around fake indifference and I
Watch their cold, dark silhouettes disappear
A hundred bodies fill this room
And all their faces overdone
Pain is foreign, foreign to us
I don't even know you
You won't even know i'm gone
Was it something i did wrong?

Roses, roses cold
Roses, roses sold out
Turn around reds and whites again
i'd sell my kicks for one more low tar
Fevers hand in hand with shoelace bracelets
Why some girls so naive
He didn't unbutton your blouse to see
A better view of your heart
Oh yeah, can't blame you from trying

I don't even know you

You won't even know i'm gone

Was it something i did wrong?

Roses, roses cold

Roses, roses sold out

Roses, roses cold

Roses, roses sold out

Sing it soft

Make it slow

Apples parachute the boys back down

Fill it up

Overflow

A new, improved modern way to feel

I don't even know you

You won't even know i'm gone

I don't even know you

You won't even know i'm gone

Was it something i did wrong?

Was it something i did wrong?

Was it something i did wrong?

Meg & Dia

musics for the soul

Some of the Music that i usually hears to suits my moods and feelings:




Finding Love 


Huge Grant & Drew Barrymore - Way Back into Love
Yuna - Deeper Conversation
Celine Dion - Alone
Mocca - Secret Admirer
The Corrs - Irrisistable
Spice Girls - WannaBe
Mandy Moore - Crush



When in Love

Aizat - Lagu Kita
Norah Jones - Love Me Tender
Bunkface - You and Me
Celine Dion - I'm Your angel
Celine Dion - When i Need You
Diana Krall - Ps I Love You
Joss Stone - L.O.V.E
Renee Zellweger & Ewan Mcgregor - Down With Love
Sarah Barellies - Love Song
Sixpence Non The Richer - Kiss me
Shania Twain - From this Moment
Taylor Swift - Our Song
Taylor Swift - Today was a Fairytale
Glee - Marry You
Glee - Lucky
Glee - Fire
Martina Mcbride - My Valentine


Love Triangle


Shakira - Objection
Meg & Dia - I'll Find Mine
Coklat - Segitiga
Destiny's Child - Say My Name
DVa - Aku, Dia dan Kamu
Beyonce - If I Were a Boy
Ciara - Like a Boy
Hinder - Lips of an Angel
Rihanna - Unfaithful
Sixth Sense - Tak Bisa Memilihmu


Craving for Attention

Julianne Hough - Is That so Wrong
Leann Rimes - I Need You
Orianthi - According to You



Heartbroken


Cascada - What Hurt the Most
Il Divo - Unbreak my Heart (Regresa Ami)
Taylor Swift - Tear Drops on my Guitar
Bee Gees - How can i Mend a Broken Heart
Avril Lavinge - My Happy Ending
Boneca - Cela
No Doubt - Don't Speak
Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
Son By Four - Purest of Pain (A Puro Dolor)


Over Someone


Daughtry - Over You
Lily Allen - Smile
Christina Aguilera - Fighter
Mariah Carey - Through The Rain


Memory Lane/ Given Up


3 Doors Down - Here Without You
Daughtry - Life After You
First Lady - Never be Replace
Meg & Dia - Just One of Those Things
Rihanna - PS I'm Still Not Over You


Over Shadowed 


Meg & Dia - Roses


Faithful


Richard Marx - I will Be Right Here Waiting for You
Vanessa Carlton - Pretty Baby
Daughry - What About Now



Regret


Christina Aguilera - Hurt
Glee - Total Ecplipse of the Heart

I Don't really2 know anymore

i don't know anymore..
i don't know what to do
how to feel..
yeah i am sad and angry and disappointed and i wished i had ice cream to eat rite now..
but how angry sad and disappointed i am..
it is still going to be the same..
i don't know either to just let go..
or just shut my feelings..
coz it would probably happen again like for the last 6 or 7 times (the same thing happened but it happened twice so0 i don't know..does it count..??)
i do love him
i do love our relationship..
but i just can't stand it anymore..our relationship revolves around her..
even if we were out together she would always be there with him..
a picture..a text..drivings license..
she is everywhere even if she's not there..
i just don't know if i can bare it anymore..
she is popping up like mushroom every time and every where..
he kept saying that he keeps remembering the memories that he has with her every time i ask him..
what about our memories??what about us??is that not enough???
am i not enough??
when i ask him..he just says that ' no..your good'
i seriously don't know what to do anymore..
i do wanna talk bout this with my bestfriends..but i don't wanna burden them with my problems..
yeah..they have their own problems..with a stupid exbf who wants to kill himself..i think if he did kill himself..it would do alot of good to most of us..
i guess i'm tired of being second with her being 1st in everything..
i feel like i just wanna run away from all of this..
i don't even think i wanna get married anymore..(if my mum pushes me well..she has to be the one to find a guy for me)
and i don't even know if i wanna be in a relationship anymore..any kind of relationship..
i do wanna b loved..i do wanna feels like i'm the only one that matters..
but i don't think thats going to happen..
who am i kidding right..
thats y i have a lot of exbf..
none cared about me much just cared about what their friends are going to say if i were their gf..
i'm tired for being a symbol for status..(i don't know why that happens..it is still a big blurry to me)
i guess i'm just tired with all of this..with the status..being 2nd..
yeah so0 tired of this..
i feel like i wanna go somewhere new and just start life all over..
if i'm lucky and get the degree in fashion..i would just be here for a few moths and then i could be so0 far away from everybody..
i don't care if i get shipped to singapore,sydney, uk or milan..(wow milan gurl??thats a big dream you have..yeah like they are going to send you to milan..uk is as far as they can shipped you to..)
if i do get it..atleats if we brokeup i can start a new life there on my own..
if he keeps thinking about her..still loves her..still keeping stuff of her..
i am so0 absolutely positively sure we are not going to work out at all..
he said that he wrote the thing about her..well a long time ago..
he said he didn't post it..he just saved it in the draft box..
well the post that i read was posted last year..four months ago..
the date was 11 November 2010 and he posted on 4.30pm..
that is what i got with what i dig last night..
if he lies..then what else can i do..i don't even know if he is lying
but if he is telling the truth..it's great..
but still it does hurts..
i'm not saying that he's not enough..
i'm not saying he's bad..
nobody's perfect like he quoted..
but its true no one's perfect..
but at least just forget about her..
that is all that i want..
i don't wanna find her stuff..her pictures..her text anymore..
if you weren't so0 much in love with her as u said..yeah i don't mind if u guys contacted one another..
but she wants you back obviously..
to make things worse
you still love her..
that is not the best part yet..cause the cherry on top of that is..
she told everyone that i stole u from her..
i feel like a fucking door mat..
i'm stubborn..yes that is who i am
i don't really give people chances..
usually if anybody breaks my heart..yup thats it your gone..
i never give a lot of chances to people except him and my exbf..
my exbf was fuckingly annoying..everytime i ask for a breakup..
he squeals..he begged..he cried..and every single second that i didn't want him back..he force me to..
my bf well i love him..but sometimes he does make me think about us..
maybe i am just the rebound girl..
maybe i'm just the girl that he want to just fool around to forget his exgf..
but i guess even that doesn't work..
maybe we want different things in this relationship..
i want a serious 1..after all the times that i've been through..
well he doesn't..
maybe it was my fault i never asked him that..
i don't know who's fault is it..
and i do't wanna know..and i don't care
i'm just so0 confused..
i don't know what i really2 want right now..
cause what i want isn't the same as what he wants..
and i don't know if us can handle this..
i don't know what is going to happen to us now..
but if this keeps happening i think we will do have an expiration date for sure..
just that i don't know when..

Sort of interesting

i slept through maghrib yesterday..
i woke up at 8 caused my mum called..
after i was done talking to her..
i decided to watch tv..
for some reason i wanted to0 watch cube at ntv7
i always thought cube was a bit boring..
but today's topic was okay i guess..
i love the segment about rally racing..looks fun and fast( i love driving fast..hehe)

it seemed fun..now if i could be a race car driver..that would be so0 much fun(i can make money and do something i really like at the same time..lol)
if i could went to an audition to sejuta impian and won that..only god knows how happy it would be..
well enough with racing..
mainly i watch cube coz of its talk about cheating..

they said that there are 2 different ways of cheating..
emotionally cheating and physically cheating..
physically cheating is basically normal cheating (going out with some1 else and such which is done physically)
but emotionally cheating..every1 has their own opinion basically..
some say emotional cheating is when your partner is in love with some1 else even without physically cheating..
some say even having the thought of some1 else more than your partner is even can enclosed to emotional cheating..
well my opinion is that cheating is cheating..
either emotionally or physically..
it is still cheating..(well every1 has their own opinion right..well this is mine)i don't know if i'm the right person to talk about this but..
well i have been cheated..i have cheated.. and even been the third person( how many times??well let that be my secret..not a lot though..but I've been there.. I've experienced in every ways how a person could cheat and be cheated..so0 i think i have the right to say ae.. ;P )

being cheated..yeah totally not fun
cheating on some1..some 1 that I've cheated on was a dush..no wonder i cheated..i guess he had it coming since he was such an asshole..
being the third person in a relationship..yeah surely i'll tell you..not what anybody wants at all..(hey for my defense i didn't know i was the third wheel until she told me..after she broke up with him)
cheating..yeah..please take my advice on it..don't ever cheat..cause once your at the receiving end(being cheated) then you would know how it feels..
to me emotionally cheating and physically cheating is the same though..
still cheating..
it still hurts the other person's feeling..
i think cheating physically doesn't hurt as much as emotionally cheating..
emotionally cheating is what changes a person..
physical cheating is a one time thing..
you go out and watch a movie or what so0 ever and then when you go home its gone..
but emotionally cheating..every time constantly thinking and loving some1 else..
man that is harsh..
if your partner doesn't know..it doesn't bring so0 much harm nor hurt..
but if your partner knows..

that can do major damage to some1..( it makes your partner constantly think if you are thinking about some1 else all the time)
maybe that is why some people get so0 up tight about their relationship..
you partner making you..forcing you(even they doesn't do it intentionally)..you would still think about it..
is your partner thinking about you or some1 else..it makes you evaluate yourself on what you have done wrong..constantly thinking about that would make some1 goes crazy..
i think avoiding cheating is better..
why do people need to cheat??

i found it the hard way that cheating doesn't do any good to anybody..even your the one who's cheating..
karma will catch you eventually..what goes around come around rite..
if you don't love that some1 anymore just tell them..
don't cheat..

it is a less hurt full way..( and a safer way so0 that people don't hold any grudges on you)
if you love your partner but still cheat..i think theres something wrong with you..

and people who have been cheated..
well i think the best way to0 feel better is to let them go..
delete everything that you've got about them( phone number, address, pictures, anything that remotely relates to them..yeah get rid of it..the faster you get rid of it..the faster you'll forget)..and don't try to reach them..
and 1 day you will forget about them 1 thing at a time..
well it did for me hope it will help you to0..
and if you stuck being the third wheel..make them choose..
don't make it harder to you..
if they say they don't know who they wanna pick and you should give them time to think about..
i suggest that you run away from them as far as you could..
cause if your not the person that they wants to choose immediately..
then they are just playing with you..
once their done..
they'll toss you away..
i hope you guys find a way in resolving problem about cheating..

remember cheating is bad..

Can I Have your A-10_tion Please!!

i was noted that there might be a very high chance of acid rain tomorrow
this is due the explosion of the nuclear power plant in Japan..
if it rains tomorrow..
make sure that you guys protect yourself from the rain..
even the slightest contact with rain can cause skin irritation, loss of hair and worse cancer.
so0 please make sure that you are protected from the rain to avoid from any serious health issues in the future..

i don't want to0 see you guys turned into a skeleton like that guy..lol..(^_^)
so0 please take the necessary measure to0 keep yourself safe from acid rain..

my prays goes to all the affected victims in Japan..may the dead died in peace and the living keeps on living..

some guys are just jerks

OH MY GOD..
I am so0 freaking furious with these two guys (one was a pedestrian and the other one hit the trunk of my car)
it was his freaking fault..
and he wanted to blame me..
just because i'm a girl..
he thinks that he can push me around..
like a rag doll..

he hit my car..he was going the wrong way..it was a one way parking lane..
didn't he saw the no entry sign at the end of the parking lot..and he drove fast on the parking lane
it was totally his fault..
he thinks he can push me around...well he is freaking wrong..
after a few second i had absorbed that he crash in to my car and blaming me for it
i told him that it was his fault..he drove on the wrong freaking lane..
he realize that it was his fault and then climb into his car and drove away..
he didn't even say he was sorry for the wrong acquisition..
he is a yellow bellied coward (when he realizes that it was his fault)
the other guy..the pedestrian went to check if what i said was wrong..
well he found out that i weren't wrong..
and he also didn't apologize..
guys are jerks..
just because they see that i'm a girl..they think that they push me around..
well they are wrong..
they think that a girl is weak..
all i can see that they were so0 stupid and fucking jerks..idiots
just because i'm a girl they can't apologize to me??
who do they think they are??
if they apologize to a girl what??would their balls just fall off and rolled away??
seriously guys need to respect and appreciate women more..
if a women did something wrong..a guys would just drilled her with every bad things about her that they could find and wont let her loose on that..
but when a guy does something wrong..the guy would just simply shut up and run away..
how sexist..
women should be treated equally..
not like undermined servants..
omg..i am still furious with those two guys..idiots
thank god that my car is ok..the paints was chipped but there's not dents..
his car did have a dent though..at the front on the right side..
a waja hit a satria(the old model)
proton's old car is tougher..
compared to the new 1..
wow i'm impressed..(but i am still furious though)

Cherish them all

i don't know what have happened to people now days..

They easily forget about the people that loves them,

The people that have cared for them,

Who stood by their side through thick and thin,

Who helped lifts their spirits up,

Making them happy.

Once that person is gone..

They'll start to ponder on what went wrong

They realized that it was all their fault..

At that time would they realize that it's to0 late..

It's to0 late to say sorry, thank you nor i love you

It is to0 late for redemption..

To0 late to redeem the time that they have lost with their loved ones

At that time they wished that time would just freeze and rewind..

So0 that they have the chance to0 change their course of life

But that is just a wish that will forever astray

Thus, they regret that they forgot about the people that loves them

A regret that they have to live for the rest of their lives with

In the end they'll shed a tear, pay their respects and say their last farewell

For they will never see them again

so0 before it's to0 late 

Cherish your loved ones

Not only you family and that special someone but also your friends

Cherish them and love them while they are still alive and living well

Always be on their side 

For it you don't

Regret will always chase you till your last breath

Feverish

It's been 4 days..

asyik demam je.susah la mcm ni..huhu

hopefully by tomorrow my fever would just go away..

yesterday i red something about panadol on my friend's notes in facebook

it says that panadol, panadol actifast and panadol soluble is not go0d for people who has gastric.

a doctor stated that he rather take traditional medication than consuming panadol or paracetamol..

it's been said that panadol residue can stay in our system for 5 years..

it also been said that the more panadol a person consume the less effective it will be..

it also stated that panadol could cause liver failure if consumed in large quantity.

usually people consume panadol due to headache, fever or flue

it stated that a headache is cased by an unbalance of ion/electron in our brain cells

doctors recommend if you have a headache it is better to consume a ratio of 1:1 or 1:2 of isotonic drink and water which is 1 cup of isotonic drink and 2 cups of water.

it is a much more effective and less harmful way to cure headache..

another effective remedy is to soak your feet in warm water..

this helps to improve the blood circulation.

i think after this i would try the remedy prescribed 

lets see if it really works..

i'm desperate..

i hate taking pills anyway..

i always choked while trying to swallowing it..(maybe due to my swollen tonsils) (-_-,)

hope it works...

My Comeback

Hey guys,
I'm back..now i think for good and i will certainly not delete my account again lol..
not to say that i didn't miss not writing to you guys..(i miss you guys so0 much)
i think this time i'll be more consistent..

i guess i was busy with all the things that have happened to my life these last few years..
i haven't got the chance to write..
well guys the good news is that i'm back and this time my blog is not only about my life..

i think i have to spice things up  a notch..
maybe you'll be seeing me writing on just about anything, maybe tips,movie preview and just about anything that i think you guys should know about..(hope it would be helpful..lol)

hope you guys will wait and see what i have in stored for us to enjoy.. (^_^)
wish me luck ae..
Love you guys a lot...mmuuaaahhxx3