how do they do it????

how do they do it??
having a very long relationship..
more than a year..
how could they cope??
like the first few months..
yeah they are great..
the honeymo0n phase..
everything seems great..
even their flaws..
you can see pass through it..
but when you've start fighting..
it won't stop..
and little by little you see all the flaws.
and the things that you hate about them..
that makes you think that why did you agree at first to be in the relationship with that someone..
that is usually what happens to me..
at first everything seems greats..
and when i've started to get board or someone pissed me off..
yeah the fights starts..
the hating starts..
the saying bad things about that person starts..
and the frustration starts..
depression..
yeah that to0..
relationship is a very hard thing.
trying to be understanding..
and wanting that other person to understand..
yeah that is hard..
it's hard...
usually people don't really know what you want in a relationship..
and what people want..
maybe you love them..
but they don't love you as much..
or they love you like crazy..
but you don't love them that much..
that is usually what happens in a relationship..
that's why things started to go wrong..
very2 wrong..
when one party doesn't care as much..
yeah it hurts the other party..
sometimes people don't care..
even they are so0 called you boyfriend or girlfriend...
i think to have a long lasting relationship..
you have to find someone that love you as much as you love them..
yeah i know..it's hard..
but it's not impossible right..
there must be that perfect someone for everyone..
someone that understands you..
that accepts you for who you are..
your flaws..
your craziness..
and in my case I'm a little bit of a perfectionist..
i like everything to be a little bit like perfect..
i don't want it to be all perfect..
but i'm just like that..
i like to do things by the book..
plan things before it happens..(even if it doesn't happens)
it is just me..
i like doing things and perfecting it..
making things perfect even if i know they aren't
that is just me..
aside of me..that people sometimes doesn't see..
if you see me co0king, doing a model for someone, baking, ironing and just about anything people would see it
but maybe sometimes people just overlooked about it..
i'm sorry that i'm a bit of a perfectionist..
and sometimes i make people feel uncomfortable about it..
but that is just me..
i want everyday to be like sunshine in a rainy day..
i don't mean it sometimes..
but that is really2 just me..
hope people know at least a bit about me..
well i'm not going to tell everything about me..
let everything else be a mystery to you guys for now..
i love being a realtionship..

Bye2

hey guys..
i think i'm gonna stop for a while..
a bit bz with everything dat is going on..
and i have an exam coming up..
so0 bye2..
c u after my exam..
which is on the 22nd this April

Hate it!!!

hey peeps..
today i found out that guy hates girls who drive faster than them..
actually i've known it for a while..
but today..just make me realize..yup its true..
some guys ( not all by the way)
thinks that they are better drivers than girls..
well not true...
guys who thinks that they are better driver are usually obsessed with winning
if a girl drive faster of cuts them..Because the guy is driving slowly..
they would do anything just to prove that they can drive faster..
guys like this are morons..
they risks peoples lives just to prove that..
yeah..
so0 immature..
and not to mention idiots..
like just now i cut a guy cause he was driving so0 slow in the right lane..
and what he did was..he drive on the left lane and try driving faster than me..
and then just cut in front of me while he was risking his friends life..
if i drove a little bit faster he could have hit a lorry which was in front of him..
or he could have risking the passengers in his car and in mine if he didn't have the space to avoid the lorry..
see..not all guys are good drivers..
some are just careless and stupid to realize what they are doing is endangering peoples life..
a go0d driver is not a girl or a guy..
a go0d driver cares for other peoples life and their own..
doesn't mean you are driving slowly that you are a go0d driver..
sometimes people who drive fast are go0d drivers..
and accidents mostly happens are not cause by fast drivers..
but accidents are caused by immature, careless and slow drivers..

owh before i forget..
i saw the car in front of me hit a cow today..
that poor cow...
the cow didn't died though..
maybe it had a headache since that car hit its head..
the car didn't stop though..
the driver didn't even stop to check the car..
huhu..
it was terrifying..
seeing a car hit a cow..
huhu..
thank god i was able to stop the car before we got any closer
huhu..
thank god we weren't harmed in any way..
after the cow got hit..
he got  up and walked away..
huhu..
that is all i think..
that happened today..
hehe

Haiyo0..~

i went through my stuff just now..
my notes and all..
and i found a note from my ex bf..
and when i red it back..
i was sort of funny
haha..

how naive both of us was back then..
thinking that we were in love
maybe he was in love with me..
but i think back then i was in love with the idea of having a bf..
but i wasn't really in love..

i was in love..i think madly in love though..
haha..
but it wasn't with him..
i guess after i got rejected by that person i love..(yeah you know who you are..hehe..if you're reading this)
(i haven't been rejected by any guy before..so0 maybe that is why i did that)
i tried to find someone that likes me more..than i like him..(my bad..hehe)
i didn't mean like to hurt him and all..
now i am so0 worried that i'm gonna b someone's rebound gf..
but back then i made my ex my rebound bf..
i guess karma catched up 2 me fast..
haha

i guess my ex still holds a grudge on me..
well i don't blame him tough..
based on his note..
he sounds like he has never been in love with anyone before..
huhu..
but he did say that he had a gf before me..

hope he finds someone he loves..
but still reading that note back..
it was pretty funny..
haha..
i know its not nice to laugh..
but still it is funny..
huhu..
but he was an easy target

Lalala (a dash of boring + a hint of craziness = this really unusual post) XD

Hey peeps..
right now..
i'm spacing out on what this post should be named..
think crazy wouldn't cut it though..
haha..
why??
cause right now i'm doing things that usually people don't know how to do..
or may never done in their whole entire life..
what am i doing??
yeah let that be my secret..
it is something easy but i don't think people would ever2 think of doing it though..
may be i'm desperate..
no2..i know what your thinking..
it is not that..
not even close..
haha..

maybe cause of the anti depressant i got 2 days ago got me going this crazy..
haha..
i think when he said he's going to give me antidepressant for my migraine (he meaning the doctor)
made me think am i that depressed??
i am stressed out..but never crossed my mind that i was depressed..
it startled me for a while..i think i spaced out and i didn't hear what he said after that..
all i remembered was he asking me if i was okay..
well the antidepressant did help me with my migraine though..

but still..
i don't have a clue what to give the title for this post..
you guys must think that i'm crazy babbling about what is the title of the post should be while i'm posting it..
maybe i am i just going crazy..
huhu..

i don't know why people think that i don't know how to find them..
like in my ym..this guy by the name jejaka nakal..
he thought that he could fool me..
i'm not stupid..
i know he was someone i knew..
but i didn't knew who it was until i traced it and found that i was my ex..
just cause i'm a girl..i'm not stupid..

i hate that most of my software are gone..(due to formatting my laptop)
i can't do things that i used to..
but still it is not hard to find out things about people..
like a few hours ago..
i found out things that i don't know either it was true or not..
the person who wrote it wasn't that clear about the details..
that person just talk generally about it..
i really wanna know what happened..
but it was to0 general..

i still haven't come up with the title for this post..
should i name it i did a bad thing??
but i didn't did a bad thing..
i did something but i don't think it is bad..
huhu..

i'm at home all alone..
my grandpa went to kl yesterday..
he said that he had business..
yeah..
he's nearly 80..(i don't really know how old he really is..all i know is that he is in his 70's and near to his 80's)
he should stop working..
there is no one he has to support..
he has my grandam's pension..
he should sits at home watch tv or move to kl with his son and watch his grandkids..
why??
well he keeps messing up my name..
he kept calling me tie and rul..i'm not his daughter or son..
since my grandma died at mekah...
he has been like someone who doesn't know where he's going..
he forgot about a lot of things..
he talks to himself..
and sometimes he talks to my late grandma's pictures(omg..that is scary..beyond crazy)
i think that he should get married..
huhu..

i've been hearing Byul - I think i love you since 5 hours ago..
i don't why am i still not bored with that song..
i guess i'm bored anything would do..
i think i know what to put the title of this post..yay!!!
at last i can think now..

i think i should go to sleep..but..
i'm not yet sleepy though..
maybe caused i slept from 5pm till 9 pm..
haha..
i was tired..
and i'm having my period..
so0 it wasn't wrong for me to sleep right..
i know it is not really go0d sleeping through dusk..
but i was tired..(is that a really good reason??haha)

anyway i think i have run out of things to write..(not really..i have alot more..but that's enough for now..)
hope my craziness doesn't rub on u guys..(if that could happen..i think alot of people would be crazy by now..haha)
hope u guys enjoy what i've been babbling about in this post..
hehe..
bye2.. ( for now..hehe..  ;P)

I Think I Love You

It can't be

It's not possible

That's what i told myself

There's no way that i'm in love with you

It's just jealousy, I must be lonely

I tried fooling myself

But now i can't hide it anymore

I think i love you

It must be true

Cause i miss you

When you're not around

I can't do anything

I keep thinking about you

Seeing how thing are..i know

I'm falling for you

I didn't realize it

Now i need you

All of the time

Now i understand that

somehow you've already grown deep

In my heart

They say we're not suited for each other

That it's better for us to just be friends

From one to ten

We can never agree on anything

How can we be in a relationship?

When everyone says we can't last

Their words have been in my thoughts

But i don't want to think about it anymore

I think i love you

It must be true

Cause i miss you

When you're not around

I can't do anything

I keep thinking about you

Seeing how thing are..i know

I'm falling for you

I didn't realize it

Now i need you

All of the time

Now i understand that

somehow you've already grown deep

In my heart

Why i didn't realize what i felt about you immediately?

Why didn't see you when you were just in front of my eyes?

That whole time you were just beside me all along

Why didn't i realize

That i've loved you all along

I think i love you

That's what it seems

Cause i miss you

When you're not around

I can't do anything

I keep thinking about you

Seeing how thing are..i know

I'm falling for you

I didn't realize it

Now i miss you

All of the time

I can see now

That you've grown deep in my heart

and i've loved you all along

Byul (English Version)

Secret Admirer

Oh, secret admirer

When your around the autumn feels like summer

How come you're always messing up the weather?

Just like you do to me

My silly admirer

How come you never send me bouquet of flowers?

It's whole lot better than disturbing my slumber 

If you keep knocking at my door

Last night in my sleep

i dreamt of you riding on my counting sheep

Oh how you're always bouncing

Oh you look so0 annoying

Dear handsome admirer

I always think You're a very nice fellow

But suddenly you make me feel so0 mellow

Every time you say hello

And every time you look at me

I wish you vanish and disappear into the air

How come you keep on smiling 

Oh! You look annoying

My secret admirer

I never thought my heart could be so0 yearning

Please tell me now why you try to ignore me

Cause i do miss you so0..

Mocca

0oh migraine

i've been having migraine since my period started..
which was 3 days ago..
if i could put a bullet in my head just to stop the pain..seriously i would..
huhu..
i red online that migraine is a very painful headache that increase a persons sensitivity to light and sound..
yeah even i don't have a headache and i watch a very bright light could make me have a headache..
other that that migraine can last for hours or days..
huhu..

MIGRAINE SYMPTOMS


1.Moderate to severe pain, usually confined to one side of the head(yup)

2.Pulsing throbbing head pain(got it)

3.Increasing pain during physical activities(have it)

4.inability to preform regular activities due to pain(usually have this)

5.Nausea(nope)

6. Vomiting(regularly)

7.Increase sensitivity to light and sound(yes definitely have it)

WHAT CAUSES MIGRAINE

1. Allergies (i do have allergies but just to dust..and i don't think that i've got migraine bcoz of that)

2.Bright lights, loud noises and certain smell of perfume (i don't recall seeing bright lights these last 3 days,loud noises definitely no..and perfumes have never benn a problem)

3.Physical or emotional stress (a definite maybe)

4.Changes in sleep patterns (definitely not)

5.Smoking or exposure to smoke (Nope)

6.Skipping meals (yeah right..i've benn eating non stop these 3 weeks)

7.Alcohol (yup definitely NOT)

8. Menstrual cycle fluctuation, birth control pills and hormone fluctuations during menopause onset (a big fat YES..my period was late by 3 weeks..3 whole weeks)

9.Tension headaches(nope don't got them)

10.Food contain tyramine, MSG and nitrate(i ate alot of MSG before this but it doesn't always cause migraines)

11.And other food such as chocolate, nuts, peanut butter, avocado, banana, citrus, onions, dairy products and fermented or pickled foods (nope haven't have any of that in months..except for milk that goes with my cereal)

I red that all of this doesn't usually causes the migraine to burst..but avoiding it doesn't also help to prevent migraine though..

HOW TO TREAT AND PREVENT


There are many ways to prevent and treating migraines such as preventive migraine medications, ranging from diet changes and exercise to prescription drugs. Some of these include :

1. prescription Beta Blockers, Anticonvulsants and also Antidepressant

2.Botulinum Toxin A (Botox)

3.Herbs and vitamins such as butterbur, cannabis, coenzyme Q10, feverfew, magnesium citrate, riboflavin, B12, melatonin

4.Surgery that severs corrugator, supercilii muscle and zygomaticotemporal nerve in the brain

5.Spinal cord stimulator implantation

6.Hyperbaric oxygen therapy

7.Vision correction

8.Sleep, exercise and sexual activities

9.Visualization and self-hypnosis

10.Chiropractic care or acupuncture

11.Special diets such as gluten free

there are so0 much thing that could be tried to reduce, prevent and treat migraine..but taking a lot of medication can cause rebound headaches..

hope one of this could help me treat this migraine that i'm having right now..
huhu..
i can't stand it..
hurts a lot..
well hope this info could help some of you out there...

To My New Bestie..

i met this girl in facebook..
and yeah..she is so0 friendly...
we commented with each other for three days now..
and yesterday..
i red her blog that she wrote about me..
aww...she is so0 sweet..
no one has ever post anything about me in their blog (that i know of)
(and if they do..i hope they posted nice things about me..hehe..but if they don't then whatever..i don't care...)
she said the nicest thing about me.. (even my own bf doesn't post anything about me in his blog..go figure)
we have so0 much in common..
we like the same things (including Barney in how i met your mother)
she is just so0 awesome..hehe..
we have the same attitude..
we are just like two peas in a pod..
even she's a year younger..(which means i'm older..huhu..thought i would never said that word 'older'..haha)
but still..she is really like this other person..that is just like me...weee~
i wish us would be Best Friends Forever..
i am so0 glad that we met..
Besties Forever.. (^_^)